I am very often amused by the simple things in life that seem to take on a different meaning to me, because I am living this double-life. Just an everyday comment can make me smile in a way people don’t understand, and usually makes them look at me quizzically. I usually end of telling them they just made me think of something else, and realistically that is what happened.
So that this makes a little sense, you need to understand that I am a huge fan of the Game of Thrones television program on HBO. While the season is in full swing, I can’t wait for each new episode. The Sunday evening show actually completes my weekend, and it’s a routine I have quickly learned to love. Anyway, one of the main utterings in the series is a forewarning… “Winter is coming!” I always reply to myself that I can’t wait, both to see what winter brings in GoT, and because winter is Valerie’s time.
OK, back to (the mundane) reality… Earlier in the week some coworkers were discussing the weather we have had this summer, particularly that it hasn’t been as ridiculously hot as it usually is in Indiana. I thought it had been quite nice not having to be in state of constant perspiration, but even though I know these people would be complaining about the heat if it was a typical summer, they were complaining that they feel “cheated” but not having a summer. The conversation then takes aim at the upcoming winter. Since we “have gotten off easy”, the consensus is that we will now be punished by the worst winter Indiana has ever seen! Oh my! (cue the ominous background music!)
So then the conversation turns to how awful winter is. As they begin to list everything negative about the season, I begin to smile because winter is my favorite season! Winter is when I am the most in touch with my feminine side and when I can transform my body into a more comfortable state without the risk of outing myself. It is right now that I am longing the most to shave every bit of body hair off and to paint my toe nails the brightest red that I can find. I am on the far side of the sun, ready to make that elliptical slingshot back to the winter girl!
So I am brought back out of my daydream by a comment that is absolute and almost angry… “Nobody likes winter, at least nobody normal!” Of course my smirk turns to a laugh, and all eyes turned to me. I said they were probably right for the most part, but that I love the wintertime. The woman to my left (I can’t really say lady) then sort of scowled and said “Well of course you do. You are so backwards; you are in front of yourself.” We all laughed and the conversation went elsewhere, but she was absolutely right. The entire conversation was on a different level to me, and made it much more entertaining.
So later in the week I find myself at the gym, doing my regular workout routine. Many people watch the video screens while working out but I prefer to just gaze out the window into the world. As I was plodding along on the treadmill, literally going nowhere, I noticed a leaf drop from the tree in the middle of my view. A few seconds later another fell, and yes they were yellow/brown and had the look like autumn foliage. I bent my neck to look up into the tree to see if the entire tree was starting to turn, or it was just a few random anomalies. I saw nothing but green and resolved to myself that it’s still too early yet.
As I returned to my workout, the guy next to me said out loud, “winter is coming” and it hit me like a freight train. I had a moment of déjà vu, and must have had an odd look on my face. He quickly followed up with a comment that he had seen the leaves falling also, and thought that was what I was gazing up at. Once I got beyond the initial shock I confirmed that was indeed what I was doing. He continued saying that we didn’t have much time left in summer.
Once again I smiled to myself, as that’s just fine with me. I am SO ready for the fall and wintertime… ready to really let myself ease back into the femme. But then again, I’m so backwards; I’m in front of myself… 😉