I am not invisible! (Yes I am)

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I listen to a lot of music. I listen at almost every opportunity during the day. More often than not, I would rather listen to music than watch television. I would rather go to a concert than to go to a movie. I am largely impressed with musicians and the talent it takes to master their craft.

I also tend to listen to music at a much deeper level than your average person. I hear every detail, every note, and sometimes every flaw. I hear the leads, the rhythms, the back beats, the lyrics, and the subtle touches that can sometimes make a song a work of art. I could go into details about how a single note or sound just pleases me to no end, or how including a particular note in just the right spot completes the piece. Likewise, sometimes leaving things out can also perfect a song. Anyway, if I haven’t been clear, let now be blunt: I love music.

All that being said, every once in awhile I come across a song that it seems the lyrics seem to be written just for me, or simply express what I am feeling at a given moment. It’s not really déjà-vu, but I get that same sensation when it happens… sometimes to the point of getting goose-bumps.

I’m sure many lyrics could be interpreted to mean almost anything, and probably something different to each individual who hears them. Therein lies the beauty of writing something above the basic level of consciousness.

Yesterday I really listened to the lyrics of U2’s “Invisible”, and yes… they hit home. Probably not what Bono and company had in mind when they wrote the song, but there is quite a bit of Valerie in there.

So, for your consideration, I give you the lyrics to “Invisible”:

INVISIBLE

It’s like the room just cleared of smoke,
I didn’t even want the heart you broke,
It’s yours to keep,
You just might need one,

I finally found my real name,
I won’t be me when you see me again,
No, I won’t be my father’s son,

I’m more than you know,
I’m more than you see here,
More than you let me be,
I’m more than you know,
A body in a soul,
And you don’t see me but you will,
I am not invisible,

That’s right,
I’m leaving the invisible world,

I don’t dream, not as such,
I don’t even think about you that much,
Unless I start to think at all,

All those frozen days,
And your frozen ways,
They melt away your face like snow,

I’m more than you know,
I’m more than you see here,
More than you let me be,
I’m more than you know,
A body in a soul,
And you don’t see me but you will,
I am not invisible,
I am here,

There is no them,
There is no them,
There’s only us,
There’s only us,
There is no them,
There is no them,
There’s only us,
There’s only us,
There is no them,
There is no them,
There’s only you,
And there’s only me,
There is no them.

Maybe the reason this spoke to me so much, is the fact that I AM INVISIBLE, at least Valerie is. Truly, “I am more than you know…”

-ValS

Sing me away…

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We finally had some wonderful spring weather on the weekend, so I had an opportunity to get outside and get some of those outdoor projects taken care of. I spent the entire day catching up on all those jobs that I could only think about all winter long, and I enjoyed it!

I had a radio on for most of my time outdoors, as that along with the sunshine and fresh air makes the work seem more like play. I had my regular radio station on; it’s rock/classic rock for me on most days. I wasn’t thinking about anything related to gender or cross-dressing at all when all of a sudden “Lola” comes on the radio. Yes, that’s L-O-L-A, Lola.

I stopped what I was doing and sang along like it was the National Anthem playing.

When it was over, I had a Val South smile on my face and began thinking of other songs related to cross-dressing or other gender bending, and began to put them in a “Top Ten” list in my mind.

Half way through I thought I had should write this list down on my blog, so here it is. Val’s list of the top CD’ing songs:

10. “What It Feels Like For A Girl” – Madonna… not a big Madonna fan, but you just can’t resist lyrics like “But secretly you’d love to know what it’s like. Wouldn’t you? What it feels like for a girl.”

9. “Dude Looks Like A Lady” – Aerosmith… I am a big Aerosmith fan, especially the older material. Truth is I am sort of tired of this song, which was grossly overplayed when it came out, but it does get straight to the point… Dude does look like a lady!

8. “Get Back” – The Beatles… “Sweet Loretta Martin thought she was a woman, but she was another man…” poor girl, I know the feeling…

7. “Sweet Transvestite” – Tim Curry… from the Rocky Horror soundtrack. Great sing along tune (no gay/show tune comments please)…”I’m just a sweet transvestite, from transsexual, Transylvania”

6. “Strange Night” – Heart… big Heart fan. Just a song about a woman dressing up her man and taking “her” out for a Strange Night. Sounds good to me!

5. “Ob La Di, Ob La Da” – The Beatles… Last verse…“Desmond stays at home and does his pretty face, and in the evening she a singer with the band”. Just remember…” Ob La Di, Ob La Da, life goes on, bra!”

4. “Rebel, Rebel” – David Bowie… Mr. Bowie is sort of a classic rock gender-bender in his own right. Songs not really about a cross-dresser, but I always loved the line “You’ve got your mother in a whirl, she’s not sure if you’re a boy or a girl…”

3. “As Girls Go” – Susan Vega…this song actually gave me goose-bumps the first time I heard it…”What happened to you, to make you more girl than girls are?” Damn good question Susan!

2. “Walk On The Wild Side” – Lou Reed… what a classic! “Plucked her eyebrows on the way, shaved her legs and then he was a she, she says hey babe, take a walk on the wild side”. Thinking about it makes me start singing “Do-da-do-da-do-da-do-do-do…” over and over.

1. “Lola” – The Kinks… the one and only, greatest CD/TG song in my mind!

“Girls will be boys and boys will be girls,
It’s a mixed up, muddled up, shook up world,
Except for Lola. Lo Lo Lo Lola. Lo Lo Lo Lola.

Well I’d left home just a week before
And I’d never ever kissed a woman before
Lola smiled and took me by the hand
She said, “Little boy, gonna make you a man.

Well I’m not the world’s most masculine man
But I know what I am and I’m glad I’m a man
And so is Lola.

So there it is… As soon as I put this list together, I thought of a few more, but still think this is the “Top Ten”. Kind of fun to put together and share. If you have a favorite that didn’t make my list, please let me know in the comments. If I don’t know it, I will definitely check it out!

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Keep singing!

-ValS

It’s a mystery you see, to anyone that’s not like me

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I was driving home from work today and had my iPod on random.  I can have a half-hour internal struggle just to pick out a song or album to listen to, so I usually just put in on random and let the iPod do the picking.  They’re all songs I like anyway, so why not?

Anyway, the point is that a song came on and I immediately thought I have to put this on my blog, since it has SO MUCH transgender relevance.  The songs is “Fabulously Done” by Lisa Jackson + Girl Friday.  Not only is it performed by a TG girl, but it truly could be the TG anthem for most of us.

I never had the pleasure of seeing Lisa or Girl Friday perform live, but I bet it would have been a blast.  Anyway, without further adieu, here are the lyrics (with the line that says it all to me).  Enjoy!

FABULOUSLY DONE
By Lisa Jackson / Lisa Jackson + Girl Friday

The makeup and the clothes I wear,
The fancy do and the underwear,
It’s a mystery you see,
To anyone that’s not like me.

So please retract those words of hate,
‘Cause I’m the boy you used to date,
Yes I’m your lover and I’m your son,
Yes, I’m your brother, we’ve just begun.

Somehow around the age of eight,
I learned that I should hate,
The fairies and the queers,
You know they’re just so fucking weird.

But little did my siblings know,
That I was putting on a little show,
In the mirror of the bathroom,
As my mother ran the vacuum and…

I’m not the only one,
I’m not the only one,
Who wants to be painted and pretty,
And shining and Fabulously Done!

It has taken some twenty years,
For me to learn to ignore the fears,
That there are people who will hate you,
There are people who will shame you.

So be the first to cast your stone,
‘Cause I would rather be all alone,
Yes, if I an going to be living,
Then I am going to be giving, all I can…

I’m not the only one,
I’m not the only one,
Who wants to be painted and pretty,
And shining and Fabulously Done!

I told that girl,
But that girl went away,
And I told my brother,
But my brother thinks I’m gay.
Yesterday I told my sister,
But my sister could not hear,
And I told the world,
‘Cause I’m tired of this fear!

The makeup and the clothes I wear,
The fancy do and the underwear,
It’s a mystery you see,
To anyone that’s not like me.

So please retract those words of hate,
‘Cause I’m the boy you used to date,
Yes I’m your brother and I’m your son,
Yes, I’m your lover, we’ve just begun.

I’m not the only one,
I’m not the only one,
Who wants to be painted and pretty,
And shining and fabulously,
Painted and pretty,
And shining and fabulously,
Painted and pretty,
And shining and Fabulously Done!

All images and lyrics are property of Lisa Jackson + Girl Friday

All images and lyrics used here are property of Lisa Jackson + Girl Friday

-ValS